Lack

2011-09-20T00:20:00.000-07:00

There are so many things that I feel I lack and the main is motivation. Motivation would help me to do everything because it is the opposite of my dominant trait. For those of you who don't know or give a damn it's me being lazy. I feel like I am capable of so many things but I always find myself at the bottom before I find myself at the top. I don't like this feeling whatsoever. I am blogging because I am 19 and in college so I should be having the time of my life. I felt that college would put all of my pathetic high school days behind me, and don't judge me for being so predictable...BUT college hasn't changed anything, I am still socially awkward, I have given up talking to girls because I get nowhere and I am tired of it, I am failing all of my classes in college because I got lazy from the beginning because I lost motivation once I didn't know what we were learning and that was basically the first day so now I just don't go to class because I am in fear of what my professor's might have to say, I am afraid they will inform me of my own failure and I can't take that so I avoid it like I do most problems. Yea anyone who reads this could say that I am basically explaining all the answers to what I need to do but I am unmotivated to want to do anything...I apologize for this being a venting session and I don't even know why I am writing this because 1. No one is going to give a shit! 2. It's all about me so it is selfish and I wouldn't want to read other people's blogs if they were like mine.....I'm depressed....Sorry....

Dancin' Dream

2010-11-12T15:46:00.000-08:00

Okay so I have questions but unfortunately for you I won't ask them...I know your hooraying as you don't owe me the task of answering. I am a freestyle hip hop dancer who is self taught in many to all major styles (of hip hop) and I want to live off of it. Here is where my dilema begins, as I find it hard to find the path for a dancer such as myself. There are no colleges that offer a strictly hip hop schedule. Trust me I know that there are other styles that I should familiarize myself with if I want to dance for a future, but then again how is it I see big name dancer's associated with strictly hip hop such as lil C? Uh oh I caught myself in a question and I apologize, and to be honest I do feel as though I need answers so that I can expand my reputation and from that expansion also increase my chance at making a great living off of my style. This is my dilema because of the simple fact that there truly is no school or true way it seems to gain that respect and stardom of being a world renowned hip hop dancer and choreographer. Yet in other styles it is clearly laid out such as for Jazz, Ballet, Contemporary, Ballroom, and many others. Ballet can be taught anywhere and can be used to be accepted alongside all the other listed styles above into a professional dance company after formal training, art schools, and colleges such as Julliard. After hearing all these styles and how their future is laid out almost in concrete, I have yet to hear a road for all major styles of hip hop dancers to cross. If you know of a road no matter how winding it may be let me know.

No Moolah

Lack

Dancin' Dream